痛，无休止...

本想写篇有关今天AQ的事，可惜下午回来后就没有心情了...
睡了一个很满足的午觉，也拼了一会儿作业，争取明天和后天少上网，多做作业吧！

每次被欺负或被嘲笑，
我总抱以微笑来证明，
我，并不生气...
可是我既没有圣人般宽广的胸襟，
也没有宰相能容纳船只的肚子，
我只是一个很平凡的懒惰鬼...

也许微笑只是为了让别人放心，
让自己不轻易生气吧...
有时候大发雷霆的人并不可怕，
因为他还会对你吼...
反而是那种虽然非常生气，
却默不作声，静静转身离开的人才可怕...

________________________________________________

那一轮明月，
弯弯地挂在夜空中，
显得那么孤独与凄凉...
原本应该环绕在四周的星星
早已失去踪迹...

风能抚平那逝去的记忆，
却寻不回那溜走的岁月...
任自己如何呼喊，
过去的只剩叹息...
心痛依旧不停歇，
泪水还在酝酿着...



既然你们都说我错了，
那能告诉我怎样才是对的？

Inter-UG Game

Friday morning went for archery practice...

Realise that my shooting skill regressed...

At the end of day,my fingers were very painful because of pulling bowstring...

My brother was backed from China around 4pm...

He never brought my new sports shoes to here due to overloaded...

and my watch was not bought because of some reason too,

but the notebook computer was brought to here safely...

Saturday morning was the actual Inter-UG Game 2008...

Officers were very concern about this year's game,

as we would be able to keep the trophy cup if we won the game for the third year which was this year...

It's sad to know that throughout the game,I had never hit the bulls eye...

Even though all my arrows were on the target paper...

We managed to won the game at the end,

and we kept the trophy cup in the BB room forever...

V. principal, Mr Tan was going to sponsored another trophy cup next year...
Besides the trophy cup,12 of us also got trophies...

My mother brought my brother and I to my parents' friend's house around 7pm...

Saw three little crazy girls there...=.=

Two of them are sisters,while another girl is their cousin...

Three of them occupied the owner's son's computer to play Audion...

The two sisters kept telling each other's faults...

Have fun time there...

We left around 12.45am...

爱淡了梦远了，

拼命了受伤了，

叹气了放弃了...

16.12.2008

Today has AQ training again...
we have fun during training though it's still very tiring...
3 repeating circuits A before 10rounds of running,then 3 repeating circuits B for the ending part...
The gay fellow,Nijel keeps on making horny sounds and doing funny movements...
ShiWei can't take it,so he tells us to keep the gay at the bottom and we all lie on him...
Poor Nijel... XP
Go home around 11am plus...

Chat with Tudi at night..
We share our emotions...
All look so cute!! XD
Everytime chat with her,I will remember her laugh,which makes me feel happy too..
And lots of "HAHAHA"will be seen for all the conversations we had...
Thanks Tudi~ :D
Dun emo ok!?
Both of us still have a lot of homework to be done,and she lost her maths worksheets somemore...=.=
Hope she will find people lend her photocopy as soon as possible...

The most enjoyable thing is that I am able to post and reply tags in QQ空间again!!
Finally,after a few months..=.=''


越来越在意，
越想越苦恼...
如能洒脱点，
牵挂自然消...

相信吗？

今晚和友健一边聊，一边等不会出现的双子座流星雨...
感觉他懂得好多哦~
从天空与大海相恋到每个人都会撒5万个谎以上...
也探讨了人生在世的目的...
沉重的交谈，又感悟了很多...

一直在重复播放着：Dear Baby...
越听越觉得孤寂...

感触很多，
不懂怎样可以停止胡思乱想，
文字和语言都表达不出的感觉，
只有自己最清楚...

十五的月亮十六圆...
今晚的月亮果然很圆...
夜空下除了嘈杂的汽车驶过的声音，
就只剩下傻傻等待流星雨的我，
独自遥望星空...

剩半个月就开学了，
还有好多作业哦...
虽然已经在赶了，
不过还是不能确定，
是否能及时完成...

等待戈多的人，
不想放弃的人，
都很傻，
都很笨，
都很呆...
他们都有着，
固执而天真的心灵，
因为他们选择相信...

每个人的信念都不同，
不管对与错，
只要相信自己，
做对的选择，
然后勇往直前...


那些熟悉的身影，
烙在脑海里，
忘也忘不掉，
抹也抹不去...

即使没有流星，
还是可以许愿...

Sharity Gift Box 2008

Yesterday was The Boys' brigade Sharity Gift Box 2008...
It's the longest running community service project in Singapore..
It's objective is to bring cheer to the less fortunate in Singapore by fulfilling thier Christmas wishes..

Last year when I was a sec 1 BB boy, I dun really know wat's going on for the SGB,I just did wat the officers told me to do...
Now then I realised that actually we were just like Santa Claus...XD
There are three types of locations we will be divided and allocated to..
I stayed at warehouse last year,where BB HQ is...
This year,I went to the Joo Chiat Community Club with TianEn to persuade public buying gifts for the less fortunate...
10 of us were separated into 5 groups at 5 different CCs...
There would be many wishing tags hanging on the wishing tree(Chrismas tree)...
All the less fortunate people had written their Christmas wishes on the wishing tags and our jobs are to get as many people to pick the tags as possible...
The Joo Chiat Community Club is having renovation,and there are very few people around at the JCCC...

We were backed to the HQ at around 5pm plus,and changed into pt kit...
Then we had our dinner there at the corridor...
It's quite slack after the dinner...
Around 8pm plus,the warehouse became noisy again,because many food and other stuff were been sent to HQ and we had to unload all the things from the van...
After unloading,we were supposed to separate them onto different parts of the warehouse according to beverage,canned food,toy,noodle,rice,oil,toiletry etc..

We took bus back to Yishun...
The time was 10pm sharp when we reached Yishun MRT station...


那些曾经以为
很美好的过去，
感觉越来越遥远...
是我不懂得珍惜？
还是那并不属于我？

Nothing...

This morning went for awards meeting and finally got back all my badges that are supposed to put up on the chevron...So happy!!! XD
Playing computer for the whole day after the awards meeting...
At night...
SinYee wanted me to send her some songs...
It's a lot lol...Make me feel like fainting...=.='''
However I was very happy to find the song,秘密基地's 剧场版...
Very touching!!
Like it so much~ ;D

Actually I got nothing to write lah..
but some people keep on nagging and complaining that I nv update...
So no choice,but to write something lol...


世界寂寞地
只剩下我的
心跳声和呼吸声...

A Challenge to ME,The ROPE COURSE!!

I reached Sembawang bus interchange around 7.50am yesterday...
We could't get into the bus because many other company boys were queuing up at the bus stop before us...Therefore we decided to walk towards BB & GG campsite...

Poor Timothy didn't expect that we would be running and walking,hence he carried his children's camp items with him and it's very tough for him...
We were late about 45 seconds,according to Mr Kang's watch...T.T
Before I cooled down from running,we were gonna push up on hard sandy ground...
My palms were hurt...
Then we went to play some warm up games before the actual rope course...

After the warm up games,we went for the low rope course,which is to get over to the otherside of the wooden wall...(I don't know the name for this event...)
Moti,Timothy,GuoMao and myself took turns to use our hands to support others' legs,so that they could get to the top of the wooden wall...

Climbers would need to put their elbows on the top of the wall,and then those people who were on the top already would pull the climber up...

During pulling,climbers' arms would rub against the top part of the wood wall,which resulted injuries on arms...

We ate lunch after that event was completed...
High rope course began after the lunch...

We learnt to tied our own harnesses before the high rope course,and some instructions were given to us too...
Above are three pictures that showed what events we did for the whole afternoon...
But these pictures are not taken by me and people inside are not any of us...

As you can see that the first event is individual event,while the last two events are required pair work...

The first two events above are only scary and challenging,but the last event is scary,challenging,tiring and painful!!!

My whole body ache now because of that...

During the climbling of last event,my arms got some little cuts and all my limbs were bruised...

I sat under the hot sun for the whole afternoon,and of course I got sunburn too...

When you were standing on a steel wire or a small piece of moving log at two or three floors height,you would pray to go down to the ground as soon as possible and you would find that ground is the safest place you had never ever thought of...

We listened to the campsite rope course officer in charge for round up in a room at the end of the course...

I found his words very useful...

He told us not to afraid of fears,and everyone is not perfect,everyone has his or her own fears.He also said that you should go towards fears and conconquer them.

If you were scare of water,then you should go to learn swimming in a proper way...

If you were scare of height,then you should go for more rope courses in a safe and proper way...

If you were not confident to speak in front of others, then you should volunteer yourself to speak more...

This course is painful,challenging and tiring, but useful and valuable to me also...

一直坚持不曾放弃过，
一直微笑不曾哭泣过，

一直等待懵懵懂懂的爱，

一直相信付出会有回报...

雨夜...

或许那只是一瞬间的甜蜜；
或许那是永远再也感受不到的幸福；
或许时间停止了，我却还在走；
或许漫长的雨夜注定了孤枕难眠；
或许我不该，不该又胡思乱想...


改编自《不会爱》...
我不会爱，我的爱，不明白
我的真爱，在哪里，为何还寻不来
你的笑容，依旧是，我最爱
或许我该，　继续，等待


空气中的温度
因为下雨而降得更低，
而我又在担忧什么？


虽然我很累，
可是我还无法入睡...
虽然我很怕冷，
可是我并不是在担心自己...
虽然我很安静，
可是内心却早已波涛汹涌...

看的见的爱——叫做幸福
看不见的爱——叫做祝福

Bad Luck!

A few weeks ago,GuoMao and I decided to buy our long pants and books at the same day...
I went to the Chop Kong Chong to buy my long pants at 10.30am,
but the shop had not opened yet...
I suddenly realised that I forgot to bring my book collection card,
so I went back home to take it...
When I arrived the shop for second time,the shop just opened for a while...
The shopkeeper measured my waist...
She told me that my size is 32,but the shop dun have my size,there only had 30 and 34,and she asked me to go there two or three days later...
I felt like fainting...
Why can't I be fatter a bit or thinner a bit...T.T

I heard a very nice lullaby this afternoon...
Then I go search for the name of the melody,because someone wanted to hear it...
Using a lot of time to search it,finally I got to know that it is called Always With Me...
It is a really nice lullaby,very super nice lol...
As a reward for finding the melody name,I had the chance to hear another nice melody...
My whole afternoon was used up to change my blog skin and put in a super cute song player(because someone said that it is cute...xp)
However,I never got to settle my blog skin and the super cute song player...
Even though I tried many times,I still failed to do so...
Therefore I have no choice but to play with the super cute player at someone's blog...xp

Dun know why I was so irritable tonight...
How come I kept showing my temper to my parents...
Dun know what's wrong with me...
Felt like slapping myself lol...

Lastly,I typed this post twice...
Because when I was posting this post for the first time,
there was a problem occurred in my Internet,
then my whole post gone missing...
So I retyped everything again...T.T


那些细小的事，
全部串联在一起，
成了最美好的回忆...
我的日子不无聊，
因为有美好的回忆填补着...

Leadership Development Course 2

Although I knew that this camp wouldn't be so tough,it still shocked me after I reached there...
There are no punishments or drills...
There are beds for us...
We were allowed to drag our benches or chairs...
There only have tests,lessons,fun games,presentations,performance and plannings...

First day in the morning,Jonathan,the joker never went for the camp... (22Nov)
Instead,he went for the school open house...
A lot of companies went for the LDC2,hence we all were divided into 4 companies...
WeiLong and YonJun at Company A,ZunChen and XinChen at Company D,Timothy,JiaYi and myself at Company E while GuoMao,Weekong and Jonathan at Company G...
Glad to be in the same company with Timothy and JiaYi,but we were separate into different squads...
Surprise to see Mr Or and FaLi there...
Last time saw FaLi was during the actual AQ which is about 7 months ago...

The first thing we did for the course was a pre-course test which I thought I was unable to pass...
The most interesting game we had in the camp is Combat skirmish...
Everyone got a chance to play the game...
It consists of defending team and attacking team...
Each of us had 30 bullets and 6 lives...
We could reload our bullets and recover our lives,although it takes a bit of time to do so...
There are 6 diffrent weapons,I chose one of the biggest weapon,thought that it looks easier to shoot...
I regretted very soon,as it is very heavy for me to carry around...
I perspired a lot due to its weight...
I had recovered my lives for around 10 times,not because that I was lousy in shooting,
but because of the rebounds from my own bullets and also gonna shot by my own teammates for many times...
The duration for every battle is 15 minutes,but my team only played 10minutes due to the heavy downpour on Saturday afternoon...

After spent the whole afternoon,everyone was so hungry,but the dinner was changed to a handicapped meal...
Everyone must feed the one who was sitting at the right handside of him...
It made me lost my appetite for that dinner...
Everyone started to pray that no more handicapped meal would appear...
We had three games to be played at night which were all planned by ourselves...
Slept at around 12am plus ...

Woke up at 630am next day morning...(23Nov)
Actually I was wakened up by a guy's High school musical3 handphone ring tone...
It rang since 6am to 630am intermittently...
Went for morning exercise at 7am...
I started getting excited and nervous...
Excited because we would break camp at 6pm on that day...
Nervous because there would be a LDC2 written test and a skit performance at the afternoon...
The test was carried out right before the lunch time...
Only 6 questions but 30 marks in total...
I didn't how to do 2 or 3 questions and I just anyhow wrote my answers on the answer sheet...
I was the second last one to get out from the room for my company and I was the last one to finish the test...
You may wonder why I was the second last to get out from the room but the last to finish the test...
It's because besides the test paper,we were also been given a survey form...
The officer asked me to eat lunch first and handed up my survey form after that...
The last guy was finishing his survey form,hence he was the last to walk out the room...

The skit that my squad decided to perform is called The Little Blue Brigade Boy...
It was quite similar to The Little Red Riding Hood...
Anyway,I managed to get over with the Camp Megastar...
Then,it came to the certificate giving ceremony...
We broke camp earlier than I expected due to the coming of the rain...

There are hundred over BB boys participate in the camp and you can imagine the overcrowded bus stop nearby...
Hence 9 of us(Jonathan was not with us)walked back to the further bus stop in the drizzle...
8 of them crossed the road at the halfway of our journey,left me alone at the other side of the road...
I tried many times to cross the road,but the cars kept on coming...
After a few minutes,I saw no more cars coming from my back,and I dashed across the road...
Something happened then...
I faced death second time in my life...
The car stopped right beside my leg...
I felt so thankful and so guilty to the driver...
The drizzle turned into a heavy downpour when we reached the bus stop...


I learnt to be more confident before
I will be more confident now!
Confidence~!
It would be my goal from now onwards

Civil Defence Course

Today morning went to HQ 3rd Civil Defence Division with Timothy,WeiLong,Nijel,GuoMao,ZunChen,XinChen,JiaYi and Weekong...
Jonathan nv came with us,I'm not quite sure about the reason,maybe its because of the "Jonathan escape"that we had two days ago...XP

After reach there for a while,I had stomach ache for no reason,just like the one that happened few months ago in the class...
The pain made me suffer a lot and I felt like going home...
I was unable to concentrate...
It got worse after the lunch...
I was not sure how I endured throughout the whole course,
but I knew that I would probably fail the Civil Defence test later on...

9 of us were sitting in three rows...
Timothy,XinChen,Nijel and WeiLong were sitting at the first row and all four of them passed their test...
Weekong,GuoMao and myself were sitting at the second row and three of us were all failed the test...
We take the test for second round,then we all passed...
It's true that I asked help from Nijel for the second round retest,and that's why I could pass...XP
ZunChen and JiaYi were sitting at the last row and both of them passed...

The whole course ended at around 3.30pm, right after we watched the fire fighting and the giving out of Civil Defence certificates...

On my way home,the pain from stomach was not that bad anymore,
hence,I walked back to Yishun Bus Interchange with Nijel...
This Saturday will be my last camp for this year,
hope I can pass my LDC 2...


没有理想与目标，
只能走一步算一步，
慢慢地去寻找梦想的所在...
No matter what happens,
there will still be sun for the day,
moon and stars for the night...

It's Fun!

10 of us went for SANA anti-drug and inhalant abuse badge scheme yesterday morning...
Timothy,WeiLong,JiaYi,ZunChen,GuoMao,Nijel,Weekong and myself were met at Yishun MRT station by 730am,while XinChen was late and Jonathan went to Sengkang Community Hub himself...

The CNB officer, who's presenting to us about the anti-drug, is very humourous and generous...
He made all the BB and GG students laughed,and he dun mind give us the answers for the written test...
We also got to watch a few videos too...
The last activity we had,is role play...Which means to have a drama play to show the rest...
I dunno why the people laughed when I spoke to the two girls,"Hi~ladies..."during the role play...
Is it because of the sentence or because of my strange voice??
Anyway,I managed to speak loud enough for the audiences to hear...

We left Sengkang Community Hub by 5pm plus...
Actually we could leave early,but due to "Chocolate Boy",Jonathan Lee KunTat,we left last...

The most interesting thing would be the "Jonathan Escape"...
All of us,except Jonathan tried to get rid of him by running away from him...
We stopped at different MRT station,and we even went further to Marina and Punggol MRT stations...
We also ran around at Dhoby Ghaut and City Hall MRT stations...
At the end, we were successfully "abandoned" Jonathan at City Hall MRT station...
However,by the time we were really on our way home,it's 6pm plus...
We used one hour to escape from Jonathan...
Although it's quite tiring,I found it fun!


只要能让你开心，
我什么都愿意...

Raining=Unhappy=SAD!!

It's a short but busy and unpleasant day...
9am...
Discuss about next year's recruitment drive proposal with Timothy in the morning using msn messenger...
Talking crap with Iris Lim after that...
2pm...
Cousin and his cousin came at afternoon...
I helped him to apply for visa,
which took me 3-4hrs long...
Then I was rewarded with Macdonal food...
They left around 6pm plus...
Raining heavily!!!
6pm...
I continued my ice-cream crap with Iris Lim...
Talking about "sleeping" with Tudi again...
Promise Joanna to print something and give to her on Friday morning...
9pm...
Gonna scolded by mother at night
Because of cooking dinner late and forget to do something...
Heard a bad news about aunt...
Something unpleasant was happened to her...
Felt so worried about her...
Hope she is alright by now...
10pm...
Worry about friday's camp...
Forward two emails about BB events to Sec2 batch...
Mother was using computer to chat with my cousins and brother at China...
11pm...
Say GoodNight to Iris Lim and Tudi...
But nv go to sleep actually...
Glad to know that I hit 3000魅力值了!!
Too late to know that someone is sick...
Hope she will recover soon...
12am...
Typing this post...


注定了又是一个漫漫长夜，
无法安然入睡...
肚子好饱好饱，
心好累好累...

是否当幸福走到末路,
就无法找到来时的路...
我不敢看你转身的那一幕,
都怪我当时错得太离谱...
或许回过头,
让泪珠滑落,
记住拥有过,
忘记心痛过...

Simple...

Half month of holiday were gone...
Not much holiday assignments had been done by me...
Everyday was occupied by computer...
Besides CCA and buying things at Sun Plaza,
I seldom went out of my house...
Shall I say that it's very bored!?


越单纯越幸福By王筝

你说起那条回家的路
路上有开满鲜花的树
秋天里风吹花儿轻舞
阳光会 碎落成 一面湖

陌生的城市让人想哭
又一次爱情已经辜负
能不能把未来看清楚
寻着流星方向 可不可以找到幸福

越害怕 越孤单 谁的付出多一点
越躲藏 越相爱 越怕输
越长大 越怀念 少年时有多勇敢
骑单车 摔多痛也笑着哭

越单纯 越幸福 心像开满花的树
努力的 深爱过 就不苦
越单纯 越幸福 心像开满花的树
大雨中 期待着有彩虹

越单纯 越幸福 心像开满花的树

陌生的城市让人想哭
又一次爱情已经辜负
能不能把未来看清楚
寻着流星方向 可不可以找到幸福

越害怕 越孤单 谁的付出多一点
越躲藏 越相爱 越怕输
越长大 越怀念 少年时有多勇敢
骑单车 摔多痛也笑着哭

越单纯 越幸福 心像开满花的树
努力的 深爱过 就不苦
越单纯 越幸福 心像开满花的树
大雨中 期待着有彩虹

越单纯 越幸福 再回想起的时候

头痛...

有人说过：“命运就是这样
彼此明明已经站在命运之中，
离彼此最近的那个位置...
但无论如何，
都无法遇见...”


究竟是什么主宰着人的命运？
究竟是什么掌控着人的情感？

在迷失自我的情况下，
怎样才能找到来时的路？

想象着：
任思绪随意穿行在脑海里，
撇开一切，
什么都不想，
什么都不做，
除了呼吸与心跳...


我想说：“也许是因为
彼此都站在了平行线上，
所以始终没有相遇的那天...”
_________________________________________________________


也有人说过：“是什么心情就爱听什么歌吧！”


一个个悲伤的旋律，
勾起一件件难以忘怀的往事...
一个个轻快的旋律，
唤醒一次次甜蜜的回忆...
一个个熟悉的旋律，
想起一张张刻骨铭心的脸孔...

为什么越伤感的歌，
让人感悟到的越多？
为什么越轻快的歌，
让人觉得越放松、自然？
为什么越熟悉的歌，
让人越听越想听呢？


是我想太多，
你总这样说...

TD parade

I was going to present about total defence during today's parade...
Hence,I start to read about all the power point slides this morning to get myself prepared...
I reached church at around 1 plus...
I was still very nervous when I was presenting,but everything was fine at the end...

We all went to Sembawang Park with the youths from church after the presentation...
Water pipe game began when we were divided into four groups...
My group came in third position for this game...

There is food provided in the BB and GB Campsite nearby...
I think because I ate too much,therefore my stomach was not feeling well when I was on my way home...
It's very surprise to see Tudi in the same bus 859 tonight... XD

Sad to know that AQ training will be resume on next Tuesday at 2.30pm... T.T
And the Drill camp is in two weeks time...



Specific place would have recorded special memories,
which u wanted to remember and it's unforgettable...
不想忘，也忘不掉...

First-Aid Parade

There is no drill and no games for today's parade...
so no need to change uniform also...
haha...so happy!!! XD
For the three hours of parade time, we only need to learn First-Aid skills from three Mdms of St. Ambulance Brigade...
Although I listen and learn every skills very seriously,I still can't remember all the First-Aid skills,especially those DRABC(Danger,Responce,Airway,Breath and Circulation) and the signs of asthma and some other illness...
The learning of tying bandages and doing CPR is very fun...
Especially when Jasiel,the funny guy,asks stupid questions and plays with the female dummy...

I'm very lucky to excuse myself from the youth camp by giving a lousy reason to officer...
Therefore I'm been able to save five days of my holiday successfully... XD

But the Total Defence presentation next week makes me feel so nevous and worried...
My poor presentation skill will sure fail me next week...T.T



Sec 3 life is getting closer and closer,
I can feel the stress and excitement...

Post-exam activity

It's very comfortable to feel the sea wind blowing gently on your face...
My class reaches Palawan Beach at around 9.30am...
We never build sand castle there...
All we did is to have free and easy time, and a treasure hunt planned by CaiJing,Theodore,Nathaniel and Divian...
My group wins a third prize for treasure hunt...
At the end of the trip,I only want to say that today's weather very good... ___________________________________________________

踏着细碎的沙子，
看着白色的浪花，
聆听海浪撞击海岸的声音，
一切是那么的安宁、舒适...

海风轻轻地吹，
却吹不走思绪，
心依然乱...
在海的彼岸，
是否有着属于我的岛屿？


风，
可以把我的孤独稀释；
风，
可以让我逃避，
逃避回忆的眼泪...

Relief...

At the end of today's lessons,I finally get to know all my EOY results...
It's lucky to pass my English...
Though other subjects all score badly,
but at least I pass my English...
With three A1 ,three C6 and one B4...
(English,Maths,Science,Chinese,Geography,History and Art)
I'm not sure whether shall I be glad or be sad...
Anyway,
the exam is over,
the holiday is coming...
Wish everyone enjoy the long holiday...


All the emotions you will be able to see
when the results are released...
I'm wondering why is there such thing
called "exam"?

Emptiness

上学的时候总想着放假...
放假的时候却茫然不知所措...

每天除了煮饭、吃饭、睡觉，就是游戏人生...
虽然游戏可以打发时间，
但却填补不了内心深处的空虚感...
梦晨同学说的对，
没有每时每刻都在做的事...
如若想忘掉不开心的事，
单靠利用其他事来吸引注意力
是远远不够的...

很无助，
心里的空虚要用什么来填补？
整个人空荡荡的...

理想需要抱负，
生命需要活力，
前进需要动力，
冒险需要勇气，
而我需要什么？

失去了-找不回，
做错了-补不回，
路过了-记不得，
走累了-停不得，
忘记了-剩什么？


What can I do
to fill up
the EMPTINESS
in my heart?
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
(Special notes for Timothy:
sorry for posting Chinese post again,
I will try to post in English next time...)

T.T

T.T is not only meant for crying face,but also represents Time & Time...

It's not the first time I'm unable to finish my paper, and it will not be the last time too...
I think I have disappointed Mrs Tan again...
Since Sec 1, she knew that I can do well in Geography,but the problem was I just couldn't finish the paper on time...
I can still remember the phrase on top of my EOY Geography paper last year--"Poor Time Management"...
It goes the same for this year's Mid-year paper..."What happened to Q3?"
I'm wondering what phrase or sentence will be coming out on my Geography paper this time...

My Mother Tongue Mid-year paper1 letter writing also never finished on time...
I could see “不错”(Not bad) for my composition, but “可惜呐”(What a pity) for my letter writing...

It's hopeless for History tmr,I have the feeling...


No matter how hard I have tried,
I just couldn't do it...
Is it because of the way I think is different??
I'm too tired to think...

一半的牵挂...

曾说过的依然没变，
虽然没有以前那么执着，
不过你依旧是那一半牵挂...

你总把自己藏得很深，
让人看不透...

很想变成一个医生，
在你生病时让你及早痊愈...
很想变成一个魔术师，
在你难过时变魔术逗你笑...
很想变成一个面包师，
在你饥饿时烘出可口的面包...
很想变成一个无所不知的学者，
在你有疑难时给你满意的解答...

虽然很多时候，
明白你虽然表面很开心，
但是其实只是不希望别人担心罢了，
而我除了多逗你笑之外，
却什么也做不了。
我也知道我没有真正
能让你打从心底开心的本领，
但是我还是会继续尝试，
希望你会有真正开心的一天...

不喜欢看到你难过的脸，
不喜欢看到你伤心的语气，
不喜欢看到你沮丧的照片，
不喜欢听到你生病的消息，
不喜欢听到有关你的任何坏消息...

喜欢你的笑，

不论是微笑还是哈哈大笑...

喜欢你的淘气，

不论是真的还是装的...

喜欢你的表情，

不论是悠嘻猴还是粉猪猪...

我的心愿始终不变：
愿你健康、快乐、幸福~！

__________________________________________________

抱歉，以下内容可能会勾起你的一些悲伤的过去...

从认识你到现在，

我总是傻乎乎的，

好像什么都不懂...

不过，

其实我也知道

你被爱伤得很深，

所以，

你也把自己藏得很深...

那些记忆都是刻骨铭心的，

我知道那是不能轻易淡忘的...

既然忘不掉，

何不把它们当作最好美好的回忆，

都收藏起来...

在你难过或寂寞时，

让它们给你带来甜蜜与快乐...

一次次地想安慰你，

却无法开口，

或许是我笨拙了点，

总怕说错话，

所以有时我选择保持沉默...

我很喜欢问你一大堆的问题，

不可否认，

只因我想更加了解你...

而你每次都只是一笑带过，

我也不敢追问，

因为相较于我的好奇心，

我更怕你的生气...

追寻幸福的道路上难免会有波折，

我也希望你会很幸福，

我相信所有关心你的人也是这么想的...

但我不希望你在追寻幸福的途中迷失了自我...

如果幸福，

请快乐并幸福着，

而非痛苦并幸福着...

偶感...

轻轻地、小心地
放下执着...
竟发现没有目标、
没有理想、
没有梦想
的自己，
不懂怎么继续前进，
开始渐渐堕落...

或许慢慢、慢慢从一开始走到最后，
当一切都结束后，
才能体会到最初的，
才最深刻...

拼命地去挽回，
又能挽回什么？
记忆是唯一还能珍惜的...
过去的就过去吧，
相信明天会更好...

抱着希望活下去，
好过在绝望中挣扎...


失去比从不曾拥有更幸福...
没有拥有过又懂得什么呢？
可能除了幸福，
也要学会祝福...

Bad Example...

Last night,I did art untill 12 o'clock, then I wake up at 2 am this morning to continue my art work...
I was still unable to finish art by 6am...
But lucky today dun have morning assembly and I was able to use the art lesson and language studies lesson to do my drawing...
I manage to finish my final piece by middle of the recess...
Dunno how long I had been drawing,my whole right arm is so painful...
And I still need to finish my D&T worksheet during recess,
so I starve for two lessons and about 30minuts of D&T make up lesson...
When I go to bicycle parking place to pick up my bicycle,
I find my bicyle is not locked properly this morning...
Fortunately,no one notice that...

I'm very sleepy during the last two lessons,
but I nv fall a sleep...
Maybe it's because of YiQian,Amanda Tan and Luisa's laughters...
or because of the Mean,Median and Mode song...
I have a fun Maths lesson today...


Last minute work
and last minute revision
are not preferable...
Lastly,sleep early
and have enough sleeping hours
are very imortant...

Am I giving up??

It's always so easy to encourage others,
while the same encouragements will be useless for ourselves...
Maybe that's why we need others to encourage us
and we need someone out there to support us,
to give us motivation...
________________________________________________

好不容易放假一天，
又是雨天...
阴暗的天空让人很压抑，
白茫茫的大雨让人心情很不爽...
Art,Science,D&T...
好多功课吖~
根本就不能专心...
越变越懒了...


you know there is a goal for you,
but you just can't concentrate...
Is it due to laziness??

Relaxation

Look out from the window...

There is BRIGHT SUN,BLUE SKY,WHITE CLOUDS AND FRESH AIR...

Take a deep breath，

I can feel the relaxation in my heart...

Promise...

Yesterday, I promised to Tudi that I will be happy...
However, I just fail my Language Studies Paper 3 today...
How am I going to be happy??
I am getting more worried about EOY now...
I am glad that Tudi is keeping her promise by sleeping early,
but how am I going to keep my promise??


承诺究竟值几分钱？

End of Year Holiday BB Schedule

18 October,Parade resume...
25 October,I have a First Aid Course to attend...(For First Aid badge stage 2)

1 November,Total Defence Presentation...(For the silver Total Defence badge)
8 November,I have to go for rope course...
14 November to 16 November,thers is a Drill camp for year1 to year3...(For Drill badge stage 2)
20 November,I need to attend Civil Defence Course...(For civil badge stage 2)
Around 22 November,there is a Leadership Development Camp 2...(For promotion next year)

6 December,I need to go for Sharity Gift Box...
13 December,Normal Parade...
From 18 December to 21 Decenber,there is another camp,called Youth Camp...(which includes Laser Quest)

Beside all the events above,I still have AQ training every week...
Half of my holiday is gone...T.T


如果累了，
是不是能休息一下呢？

累与痛...

也许是昨晚吃了太多油腻食物的缘故，今天心好痛...每一个深呼吸都痛彻心扉...
担惊受怕了一个上午，在下午的时候，终于开始了期待已久的今年的第一次魔鬼训练(因为星期二的训练取消了)...不过在训练的时候不懂怎么回事，竟然没怎么感觉到心痛...

跟以往一样，热身过后就是一大堆的古怪训练方法...budda clap,俯卧撑，superman 等等...
当被折磨地死去活来后，最可怕的长跑开始了...绕着学校的楼下跑完一圈是300米左右，我们一下子跑了20圈...在绕圈的时候总会在不同的地点看到梦晨同学和妙琪，梦晨同学还给我加油呢...XD
之后我们就去露天篮球场进行剩下的一些折磨人的训练...
等到一切都结束的时候，没想到长官竟然来了，而且让我们拖着疲惫的身躯在15分钟内跑完2.4千米（绕学校楼下跑8圈）...我在一开始还能勉强跑完4至5圈，剩下的3-4圈就开始觉得喘不过气来，有几次都想放弃，可是不知为什么还是坚持了下来...最后一圈的我感觉脚犹如铅石般沉重，胸口很闷，肚子也很痛...但是我还是在12分钟35秒内完成了2.4千米长跑...
休息了五分钟，可我的肚子还是很痛很痛，感觉整个脸火辣辣得烫... 整件衣服都被汗水湿透了...
而这还不是终结...最后的是captain ball...不论输赢都要做俯卧撑...全部人被分成了两组，不论哪组输了都要做50下俯卧撑，赢得组也要做25下俯卧撑...最终，我的组赢了，险胜：5比4...

随着游戏的结束，我们也能回家了（这时已经是7点多了）...
拖着疼痛的双脚，一步一步向巴士站迈去(还好我有先见之明，没有骑脚车，不然一定得累死在路上)...坐在巴士上，感觉永远都不想离开那个座位...


好累好累...
好痛好痛...

提前的中秋

今晚两家人又再次聚在一起庆祝即将到来的中秋佳节...

因为老爸星期天不能请假，所以只好提前庆祝中秋了...

这一餐吃得好丰盛噢~ XD

祝大家中秋快乐！！

Numero

Today 20 of us from 2E3 & 2E4 go for the Numero competition...
I am lucky to be one of the top 40 in the first session and is able to enter the second session...
However I do not manage to get into top 3 at the end...

This is what I get for the competition...

One of the boys from 2E4 manages to get a 3rd position and our total score beats all the other secondary schools...
It is a good news that our school gets champion for 2 years continuously...


当我们面对失败时，
不能沮丧，
不能妥协...
不论结局如何，
只要尽力了
就该觉得满足...

Finally...

I have been waiting for so long...
Finally the AQ training is going to start tmr...
I know it is not going to be easy...

However,
I will train my best to prevent my tears dropping like last time...
I will train my best to show someone that I can do it...
I will train my best to make up my pity last year...


I believe I can,
Do u?

迷失...

It had been three years, since the day I had created this blogger...
Not much things were published for the past three years...
What had actually happened during the three years, was just like a dream,when I wake up, everything will be gone to nowhere...Left me with loneliness...
Sometimes I just can't get rid of some strange thoughts in my mind,
I'm so stubborn,so childish,so useless...
Maybe it is cureless...

Things may have changed if I have the courage and determination to change myself...
When someone is used to sadness or defeat,
will there still be any way to encourage the person??

哭得累了，
想得够了，
怕得慌了，
心也静了...