PAIN...

AQ is getting nearer and nearer, but suddenly I found myself not fit enough to go for AQ...
The thing that I worried most is still there and it seemed getting worse last month...
I can feel it...

This week ,I started to feel the inner pain of my left leg and I hope it doesn't last too long...
I want NO more regret for AQ!!

I was suffering from stomach disorder for the past few days, and it has not recovered yet...
I find myself eatting lesser and lesser now due to the stomach disorder...
(Here,I want to thank Hadi for caring me when I was having stomach disorder for the first day...)
To Hadi: Erm,I will try to drink some yakult one day,but not now...haha.. XD

I thought I am able to go back to China this year,but somehow it just fell through...



被愁云笼罩的天空，
看不到一丝曙光...
无声的呐喊，
终被撕心裂肺的疼痛
所覆盖...

Sec3 Oversea Advanture Camp!!

It's a 4 day 3 night camp...

First day,I spoiled my spectacle on my way to Kota Rainforest Resort, Kota Tinggi , Johor , Malaysia... T.T

Joseph was stuck at the Singapore custom, as his PR was expired...

The two instrucors for our class are Patrick and Lary...

We had Project Teamtanic(lake rafting) ,low rope course ,seesaw thing and jungle night confidence trek...

We had tyre flow down the stream , jetty jump and Pelepah waterfall expedition for the second day...

We slept in the tent for the first two days and I was sleeping with Daryl,YuHong and ZhenQuan in the same tent...

We shifted all our bags into chalets on the third day morning before our dear Timo came to join us for the Mount Panti expedition...

The whole third day was spent on the mountain...

It's very hard for me to climb the mountain with the super heavy expetition bag...

I managed to climb to the summit of the mountain and had a bird's view on the landscape below the mountain...

It was very tiring after came down from the mountain...

Then we had Campfire at night...

Some problem occurred during our class performance and it was not well done...
I thought we could have done it better...
Anyway,it's over and I am backed to Singapore,backed to my home...

All the activities there were not as fun as the night I had spent in the chalet with all the boys in 3E7...

When I stepped into the room,they started to talk crap...

First is Daniel went emo outside of the room,then Joseph said that Daniel was too smelly...

After that,Daniel came inside of the room and he switched off the light when Hadi was bathing inside the toilet...

When Hadi asked for his towel, Daniel picked up the small mat outside the toilet and handed it to Hadi...

Hadi ended his bathing after I gave him his towel...

Then Daniel went inside the toilet with the small mat,as he wanted to use it as towel...

Hadi searched the whole room for the small mat to dry his feet,but he couldn't find it,because he dunno that someone had took it into the toilet...;D

Hadi took his revenge by switching off the power of water heater while Daniel was still bathing...

Besides all that,Joseph and Alif also kept gaying with each other...

I laughed until my stomach ache and my tears came out...

At the end, Joseph,Alif,Hadi and Timo were sleeping on the double bed...

Daniel and TsePin were sleeping on the other bed,while YuHong,ZhenQuan,Daryl and I were sleeping on the floor...

We had fun untill around 2am,then we all slept...

If I am not wrong,I was the last one to sleep...

I set the alarm on Joseph's watch,but it didn't wake us up by 6 am this morning...

Instead,I was woken up by Kenneth who was knocking on the door and told me that the time was 7 o'clock...

(PS. I thought that guy was an AI,I am so sorry,Kenneth..And thanks for waking us up,thank you very much!! :D)

I was frozen at that moment...

Then we all rushed down to the carpark without brushing teeth...(I think Hadi and Alif brushed their teeth)

My class got the prize for best class identity...

And then we all went back in two separated buses...

The small bus break down on it's way backed,so everyone squeezed in the big bus...(someone drowned then...xp)

A good news to share here: next Monday no need to wear BB day dress even though it is Total Defence Day... YEAH!!!! XD

A bad news to share here: tmr I will still be going for parade although it's valentine's day...T.T

After all,all my friends are still safe,

what more can I ask for??

I know I am very irritating sometimes,

I know I am always been ineloquence,

I know I am always very timid...

You can ignore me,

you can stay away from me,

you can treat me as transparent...

该来的...来了...

My China buddy will leave Singapore tmr morning...
We bid farewell to each other yesterday afternoon around 4.10...
Although we have a big age gap, we are on good terms for the past 5 days...
He gave me a cap as present...

Next Tuesday will be the first day for sec3 camp...
I feel so tense,but not because I like the camp...
I HATE IT! I HATE IT!
I need to buy camp items over the weekend...

Recently, I think I am bored...
So I played reversi with Tudi at night...
I have been wining for the past few days...
However I lost to her last night...
Not because I let her won,
it's just that I was not focused enough and she has improved... ;D

Study is giving me pressure,
CCA also giving me pressure...
I am on the way to become crazy...


一开始就是如此孤独，
短暂的热闹毫无作用，
到头来我比谁都清楚，
回家的路还是一个人...

深海的孤独（日文版歌词翻译）

谁能令我知晓，悲伤的意义？

曾经以为闭上双眼，就看不到所有的哀痛，
似乎盲目的拒绝柔情，就无所谓什么是受伤，
悼念那早已被埋没的温柔声线，
此时此刻此地，在这名为心胸的辽阔的海原。

飞逝而去的往昔记忆之中，
是谁在呼唤？
仿佛在质问、在追寻，将这悲伤唤回手中的瞬间，
而永生不再的此刻，
我却只想留下妳的身影，于我的视线。

远方闪耀着静谧柔和的光芒，那是船儿彷徨的方向，
满载着汹涌的叹息，被吞没在心中的浪涛上，
本以为已经忘记温柔的意义，
却为何，迷失在这片湛蓝深黯的海洋。

漾起无法平息的水波，
生命之舟徘徊着航行，
即使连那启明的星辰也失去了光芒，我依旧乘着波涛前进，
只为在这无际的暗幕之中，
在眼瞳深处刻下妳的身影。

那记忆中似曾相识的风平浪静，
那大海深处被埋葬的温柔的彼方。

未来彼此爱恋的那一天，
带着这不会被动摇的信念，
我会一直守候，
在这悲伤回到我的手中之前，
而永生不再的此刻，
我却只想留下妳的身影，于我的视线。


译者感受：逝者远去，所留下的，是想保护的人和被保护的人，只是想保护的人化作了无奈的思念，被保护的人划下了狰狞的伤口，本以为已经忘记温柔的意义……自欺的理由再一次在现实面前支离破碎，那束躺在没有钥匙的日记本中的头发依旧留存着她青春的光泽，似乎还依稀能感受到她那唯一能平息我的狂野的温度。但那份谁也夺不走的温柔化作了血和泪，夹杂进彷徨的雨，当久违的思绪再一次被歌声勾起，当尘封的记忆再一次掠过眼前，当刻骨的痛苦再一次涌上心头，用僵硬的手翻译着句句锥心的歌词，耳边是基拉漂浮在冰冷的宇宙里，用颤抖的双唇说出的话语：“我们……为何……走到这一步？我们的……世界啊……”

深海的孤独(中文版歌词)

能否感觉 深海的思念？

闭上双眼 能否就 看不见 海那边滚滚升起的硝烟？
松开双手 能否也 遗忘那 注定战火中湮灭的相恋？
冥冥之中的相见 海风弥漫的微咸
追随瓶中的碎片 我的眷恋

再看不见 那瞳中红焰 照亮黑夜 融化我心中冰坚
再听不见 那温柔声线 拢我双肩 说守护我的誓言
无法再次重现的画面
我沉没深海的心田 仅存你容颜

再睁开眼 是否就 看得见 海尽头蔚蓝纯净的世界？
张开双手 可能够 触碰到 从未曾奢望拥有的幸福？
永恒之中的离别 漫天白雪的轻舞
融入海浪的琴弦 我的思念

无法实现 许下的诺言 冰冷刺骨 是深海的孤独
短暂的喜悦 转瞬不见 命运深处 是我心无尽悲苦
连生命最后爱你的语言
也随眼角滑落泪水 消失不见

为什么 由一生的伤悲 换不来这份爱兑现？
为什么 这残酷的世界 让我们相恋却不能再见？

蓝天是鸟儿翱翔的世界
深海的我 却无法再看见
终有一天在时空的尽边
海天相接
经时间淘洗的岁月
你的脑海还会否浮现 那张被你深埋深海
曾美丽的脸？