Nervous?Excited?

ONE week before AQ...
My legs are still painful sometimes,
but I think I can endure through the whole race...
For the next whole week, I will be preparing all the AQ items...
Erm, why is that so?
It's because I am one of the logistic NCOs...T.T

I am still worry about my legs...
Besides that, I am also worry about WeiLong and JiaCuen...
WeiLong's backbone is still recovering,but he like to play basketball ...
JiaCuen is not fit enough...
Wat can I do??
Am I going to be in tears again??

Term1 results are very bad...
I wan to improve my results!!!!!
But the problem is how??
How am I going to improve?????



我以为心里装了点东西，
走起路来会比较踏实...
没想到走了一段路之后，
突然发觉心里还是空荡荡的...
我竟忘了，
是否曾经在心里，
装过任何东西...
或者我装错了？

Disappointment...

MTC was overed...
Somehow I was very disappointed by the camp at the very last day...
I lost my spoon during the camp, but I am very lucky to find my towels and mug back today...

Many holiday homeworks are untouched...
I know I need to get them done as soon as possible,as I will be quite busy for the next few days...

I dunno why...
Everything turned upside down...
I was disappointed by a lot of things and people...
I found nothing reliable to me...


Childhood was gone...
Confidence was gone...
Xiao Bai was gone...
happiness was gone...
Everything was gone...
Left me lonely in the dark...

March holiday is coming...

Two days of BC days are so boring...

Constructing PET rockets and lauched them...

Finally everything is over and we have our March holiday!!!!

I kept sneeze yesterday...

then I had a headache and running nose this morning...

When I reached school the running nose became stuffy nose...

And I felt a bit dizzy too...
I think I was infected by my brother who had cough since last week...

Tomorrow is March Training Camp already,but I fall sick today...

I wan to go for the camp no matter wat happens...

It's because I have spent a lot of time planning and preparing for this camp...

Therefore I hope I will be recovered by tomorrow...

每个人都有一个不能触碰的极限,

而我的极限就是伤害我关心的人...

说出去的话就像泼出去的水，

永远收不回...

有些话不说出口，

不代表理亏、无言以对，

而是失望的表现，

觉得解释已毫无意义...

I failed...

Wat's the point for playing games and gain nothing?
Wat's the point for using computer when homework is not done?

Enough...
That's enough of slack and nonsense from me!!
I will use computer lesser time now with the effect from today...
Many things that I used to do everyday will not be doing anymore too...
I want to focus on my study now...

I kept on failing my Eng, SS and Geo since the beginning of the year...
Today I failed my Physics...
I know I will never pass those subjects if I keep on slacking...
So it's time for me to wake up, though it's quite late...



If there is a problem,
Solve it!!
If there isn't any problem,
Find it!!

Life as usual?

Made by Amelia...
All these three green roses were made by Amelia...
Nice right?
But they were cut from my foams which was bought for making the cones of PET rocket...
Initially, I wanted to paste the roses on my PET rocket,but Amelia objected strongly,so I just brought the roses home yesterday...

Today is Master parade again...

As usual,we have our uniform inspection for selecting the Best Dress...

I am so lucky to be selected as the Best Dress for the month...

But then I need to wear it during the March Training Camp too,which is from next Saturday to next next Monday...

It also means my uniform must be tip-top condition at all times...

As you can see from above, the guy in the first photo is our DN for today,Cai XinChen...

He will be the Chairman for the March Training Camp...
Good Luck to him...

Some funny things happen during CD lesson...

Mr Tan asks us to write out some words or things that we do or say will hurt people...

Jasiel comes out with these:

Your father so handsome and your mother so pretty,why are you like
that?
Shut your ass hole without a hole!

LiWei says:

You suck!

You are a piece of shit!

There is also words and things that we do or say will build up people...

and those are very common, such as Good job! You can do it!We will excel!

We celebrate March babies' birthday today too...

One again, I celebrate my birthday as I am one of the March babies...

Mr Ong is also one of the March babies...

I feel so tense to stand beside him and cut the big cake with him...

Lastly,ONE week left before MTC starts...

It's overed...

I rather believe that you are busy

than you forgot about me...

Though one year had past...

Eveytime this feeling makes me upset...

19th B'day...

A very great THANK YOU to Joanna,Emily,Ruilin,Yiqian,Kimpeng,Bohong,Jiamin,Huishi Jinjyue,Jiawei and all the 3E7 classmates!!!
Thank you for giving me a memorable and unforgettable birthday... ^-^

Joanna and Emily typed Happy Birthday to me last night...
This morning 12am,Ruilin sent Happy Birthday to me...(So sorry for keep asking u to sleep...Hope u will be happy too...)
Then follow by Yiqian and Kimpeng's messages...I was surprised to receive them,thank you for remember my birthday... XD
I was even more surprised to hear Bohong saying Happy Birthday to me when I walked pass him this morning...Dunno how he get to know my birthday...

Special thanks to Jiahui ,Kimpeng and 3E7 classmates...
Jiahui:Thank you for the chocolate... ;D
Kimpeng:Thank you for the Birthday letter... ;D
3E7 classmates:Thank you for all ur signatures and birthday wishes... ;D



Dunno wat had happened,
she just forgot about me...
I thought our friendship would last forever...
Do u know that
I am still waiting for ur Happy Birthday...

PAIN...

AQ is getting nearer and nearer, but suddenly I found myself not fit enough to go for AQ...
The thing that I worried most is still there and it seemed getting worse last month...
I can feel it...

This week ,I started to feel the inner pain of my left leg and I hope it doesn't last too long...
I want NO more regret for AQ!!

I was suffering from stomach disorder for the past few days, and it has not recovered yet...
I find myself eatting lesser and lesser now due to the stomach disorder...
(Here,I want to thank Hadi for caring me when I was having stomach disorder for the first day...)
To Hadi: Erm,I will try to drink some yakult one day,but not now...haha.. XD

I thought I am able to go back to China this year,but somehow it just fell through...



被愁云笼罩的天空，
看不到一丝曙光...
无声的呐喊，
终被撕心裂肺的疼痛
所覆盖...

Sec3 Oversea Advanture Camp!!

It's a 4 day 3 night camp...

First day,I spoiled my spectacle on my way to Kota Rainforest Resort, Kota Tinggi , Johor , Malaysia... T.T

Joseph was stuck at the Singapore custom, as his PR was expired...

The two instrucors for our class are Patrick and Lary...

We had Project Teamtanic(lake rafting) ,low rope course ,seesaw thing and jungle night confidence trek...

We had tyre flow down the stream , jetty jump and Pelepah waterfall expedition for the second day...

We slept in the tent for the first two days and I was sleeping with Daryl,YuHong and ZhenQuan in the same tent...

We shifted all our bags into chalets on the third day morning before our dear Timo came to join us for the Mount Panti expedition...

The whole third day was spent on the mountain...

It's very hard for me to climb the mountain with the super heavy expetition bag...

I managed to climb to the summit of the mountain and had a bird's view on the landscape below the mountain...

It was very tiring after came down from the mountain...

Then we had Campfire at night...

Some problem occurred during our class performance and it was not well done...
I thought we could have done it better...
Anyway,it's over and I am backed to Singapore,backed to my home...

All the activities there were not as fun as the night I had spent in the chalet with all the boys in 3E7...

When I stepped into the room,they started to talk crap...

First is Daniel went emo outside of the room,then Joseph said that Daniel was too smelly...

After that,Daniel came inside of the room and he switched off the light when Hadi was bathing inside the toilet...

When Hadi asked for his towel, Daniel picked up the small mat outside the toilet and handed it to Hadi...

Hadi ended his bathing after I gave him his towel...

Then Daniel went inside the toilet with the small mat,as he wanted to use it as towel...

Hadi searched the whole room for the small mat to dry his feet,but he couldn't find it,because he dunno that someone had took it into the toilet...;D

Hadi took his revenge by switching off the power of water heater while Daniel was still bathing...

Besides all that,Joseph and Alif also kept gaying with each other...

I laughed until my stomach ache and my tears came out...

At the end, Joseph,Alif,Hadi and Timo were sleeping on the double bed...

Daniel and TsePin were sleeping on the other bed,while YuHong,ZhenQuan,Daryl and I were sleeping on the floor...

We had fun untill around 2am,then we all slept...

If I am not wrong,I was the last one to sleep...

I set the alarm on Joseph's watch,but it didn't wake us up by 6 am this morning...

Instead,I was woken up by Kenneth who was knocking on the door and told me that the time was 7 o'clock...

(PS. I thought that guy was an AI,I am so sorry,Kenneth..And thanks for waking us up,thank you very much!! :D)

I was frozen at that moment...

Then we all rushed down to the carpark without brushing teeth...(I think Hadi and Alif brushed their teeth)

My class got the prize for best class identity...

And then we all went back in two separated buses...

The small bus break down on it's way backed,so everyone squeezed in the big bus...(someone drowned then...xp)

A good news to share here: next Monday no need to wear BB day dress even though it is Total Defence Day... YEAH!!!! XD

A bad news to share here: tmr I will still be going for parade although it's valentine's day...T.T

After all,all my friends are still safe,

what more can I ask for??

I know I am very irritating sometimes,

I know I am always been ineloquence,

I know I am always very timid...

You can ignore me,

you can stay away from me,

you can treat me as transparent...

该来的...来了...

My China buddy will leave Singapore tmr morning...
We bid farewell to each other yesterday afternoon around 4.10...
Although we have a big age gap, we are on good terms for the past 5 days...
He gave me a cap as present...

Next Tuesday will be the first day for sec3 camp...
I feel so tense,but not because I like the camp...
I HATE IT! I HATE IT!
I need to buy camp items over the weekend...

Recently, I think I am bored...
So I played reversi with Tudi at night...
I have been wining for the past few days...
However I lost to her last night...
Not because I let her won,
it's just that I was not focused enough and she has improved... ;D

Study is giving me pressure,
CCA also giving me pressure...
I am on the way to become crazy...


一开始就是如此孤独，
短暂的热闹毫无作用，
到头来我比谁都清楚，
回家的路还是一个人...

深海的孤独（日文版歌词翻译）

谁能令我知晓，悲伤的意义？

曾经以为闭上双眼，就看不到所有的哀痛，
似乎盲目的拒绝柔情，就无所谓什么是受伤，
悼念那早已被埋没的温柔声线，
此时此刻此地，在这名为心胸的辽阔的海原。

飞逝而去的往昔记忆之中，
是谁在呼唤？
仿佛在质问、在追寻，将这悲伤唤回手中的瞬间，
而永生不再的此刻，
我却只想留下妳的身影，于我的视线。

远方闪耀着静谧柔和的光芒，那是船儿彷徨的方向，
满载着汹涌的叹息，被吞没在心中的浪涛上，
本以为已经忘记温柔的意义，
却为何，迷失在这片湛蓝深黯的海洋。

漾起无法平息的水波，
生命之舟徘徊着航行，
即使连那启明的星辰也失去了光芒，我依旧乘着波涛前进，
只为在这无际的暗幕之中，
在眼瞳深处刻下妳的身影。

那记忆中似曾相识的风平浪静，
那大海深处被埋葬的温柔的彼方。

未来彼此爱恋的那一天，
带着这不会被动摇的信念，
我会一直守候，
在这悲伤回到我的手中之前，
而永生不再的此刻，
我却只想留下妳的身影，于我的视线。


译者感受：逝者远去，所留下的，是想保护的人和被保护的人，只是想保护的人化作了无奈的思念，被保护的人划下了狰狞的伤口，本以为已经忘记温柔的意义……自欺的理由再一次在现实面前支离破碎，那束躺在没有钥匙的日记本中的头发依旧留存着她青春的光泽，似乎还依稀能感受到她那唯一能平息我的狂野的温度。但那份谁也夺不走的温柔化作了血和泪，夹杂进彷徨的雨，当久违的思绪再一次被歌声勾起，当尘封的记忆再一次掠过眼前，当刻骨的痛苦再一次涌上心头，用僵硬的手翻译着句句锥心的歌词，耳边是基拉漂浮在冰冷的宇宙里，用颤抖的双唇说出的话语：“我们……为何……走到这一步？我们的……世界啊……”

深海的孤独(中文版歌词)

能否感觉 深海的思念？

闭上双眼 能否就 看不见 海那边滚滚升起的硝烟？
松开双手 能否也 遗忘那 注定战火中湮灭的相恋？
冥冥之中的相见 海风弥漫的微咸
追随瓶中的碎片 我的眷恋

再看不见 那瞳中红焰 照亮黑夜 融化我心中冰坚
再听不见 那温柔声线 拢我双肩 说守护我的誓言
无法再次重现的画面
我沉没深海的心田 仅存你容颜

再睁开眼 是否就 看得见 海尽头蔚蓝纯净的世界？
张开双手 可能够 触碰到 从未曾奢望拥有的幸福？
永恒之中的离别 漫天白雪的轻舞
融入海浪的琴弦 我的思念

无法实现 许下的诺言 冰冷刺骨 是深海的孤独
短暂的喜悦 转瞬不见 命运深处 是我心无尽悲苦
连生命最后爱你的语言
也随眼角滑落泪水 消失不见

为什么 由一生的伤悲 换不来这份爱兑现？
为什么 这残酷的世界 让我们相恋却不能再见？

蓝天是鸟儿翱翔的世界
深海的我 却无法再看见
终有一天在时空的尽边
海天相接
经时间淘洗的岁月
你的脑海还会否浮现 那张被你深埋深海
曾美丽的脸？

I hate M.T.!!!!

This morning woke up at 4am to continue with my Chinese news paper report...
I wrote about the CNY concert in YTSS...
I would like to thank Amanda Chang,CaiJing,JiaWei and Tudi for their contributions to my interviews!!!
I wrote 900+ words for the report...
I am so sleepy today that I fell asleep during morning assembly,Geo&SS and MT ...
Something is not right with my body,so I nv went down to eat during recess...
I had a bad feeling about it...

Sec3 camp is getting nearer and nearer...
Next week there will be some students come from BeiJing,China...
MT has resumed the reading programme for us,I hate it!!!


时间有限，
人生苦短...

The summary of the week...

During the VIP lesson on Monday, we were divided into groups to write out proposal for the coming Community Heart Day...

I and Hadi joined MengChen's group. I wrote "an important date" inside MengChen's stardate,then she and Amelia also wrote a few "important dates" inside my stardate...In addition,Amelia wrote “ZHANG HUI笨蛋” in my stardate too...

And that's not the end...

YunJing and MengChen kept on pulling Hadi and my shoe lace,just like two crazy girls who just came out from mental hospital...xp

There was no school on Tuesday,so I thought there would not be having any AQ training...

The truth proved that I was wrong...

We had AQ training at 9am...

The school was very quiet when we were having AQ training in the parade square...

That was the slackest AQ training I had...
We trained one circuit and then went to play basketball outside the school...

The weather was very hot...

You can see that our dear Nijel fell down in the first picture,but no one seemed care about it...xp

We had a lunch at the north point after the game...

Wednesday's PE lesson was the most terrible lesson I had...

We had three rounds of frog jump for the lesson...

It made everyone's legs pained for the next two days...T.T

I think the boys suffered the most...

Because the boys completed all three rounds of frog jump(some slacked during the frog jump,e.g. Timothy),while the girls only completed around half for each round...

Thursday was the most unlucky day...

We had E Maths class test and English composition test...

I thought E Maths test would be quite easy and it wouldn't be a problem to me...

However, I was totally disappointed by the test...

As out of 30 marks,I left around 15 marks undone...T.T

And for those questions that I had done,I was very confirmed that there would be some mistakes inside...

Timothy said that he might get below 5marks for the test...

The composition writing was badly done too,because I was rushing for the ending part due to time constraint...

We were informed that there would be an A Maths test next thursday...

I can feel the stress...

I said something wrong and bad to MengChen at the Thursday night...

She was angry with me today...

It turned out to become worst today,she said, "她要跟我绝交”...

It sounds familiar to me as Pua SinYee had said it for many many times...=.=''

The Chinese New Year Celebration was postponed to next Wednesday and we still needed to attend lessons for next Wednesday...T.T

I felt shameful during the last lesson,as I just couldn't keep myself awake for the last lesson...=.=''

I had AQ training after school...

I couldn't run for the training as my legs are very painful due to the frog jump on Wednesday...=.=

As usual,we had circuit training after 10 rounds of running...

Mr Kang came down today...

We had a basketball match in a team of three...

Although I dun like basketball, but I managed to score today...

Wow...I could feel a sense of achievement... XD

Here I am,

Wish everyone a

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!! ;D

Day after day...

Firstly,I wanted to celebrate that I had done all my holiday assignments by yesterday....wow...
It's surprise to myself that I managed to write out the 650 words SS essay using the whole recess+lunch time and maths lessons...
I worked really hard yesterday to complete my essay,because I dun wan to entertain the whole class during SS lesson or Geo lesson...

Today have a fun time in Physics lesson...
Suddenly, I find that Physics is the most interesting lesson among all the subjects...
I was laughing till stomach ache and my tears were come out too...
Mr Wee is so CUTE!!!! xp
I have double English at the last two lessons...
And of course,I fell asleep again...-.-
I am not purposely wan to sleep in class...
However, I had only two hrs of sleeping time on Sunday night...
It's due to the SS holiday assignments...

Afternoon,I am supposed to have AQ training...
But we need to pack the BB room and take down all the posters from the canteen tables and the walls...
We get everything done around 3.45pm...
We had a crazy game in the BB room...
Everyone screamed and shouted like mad...
I am also one of them...
Too much shouting caused my throat to be very dry...
We stopped the game when a teacher came in to tell us that it is not safe to play that game inside BB room...=.="

When we(exclude me) started to bully the sec 2s, Cinderella and some of the chinese dance girls were watching...
We(exclude me again) threw KaiWen inside the big blue dustbin and carried JianLin around with two balls inside his shirt(I am not going to describe it in detail,as u can imagine that..=.='')...

The blue tack that we collected from the posters was made into something very disgusting by our Timothy John Toriano(sorry Timo,if I spell it wrongly)...xp

When I was going back,
I saw Tudi looked smartly with her band uniform...
She was carring her tuba(if I'm not wrong), standing emotionless at the car park...
Jiayou Tudi~ ^_^

Eat ice-cream again when I was backed to home...
" Haha...Ice,do u see this???" xp


不论你选择的是哪一条路，
我都会毫不犹豫地跟随你...
因为我们的目的地是一样的，
都是在幸福的终点站...

Mistakes had been made...

It's too late...

It's always too late to regret,

it's always too late to apologise,

it's always too late to treasure...

错误已经铸铸成，

无法挽回，

无法更改，

完全没有回旋的余地...

难道非得一错再错？

泪干了，要怎么继续哭？
心碎了，要如何粘回去？
人死了，要怎样能心动？

Stress..

Feeling like can't cope with the triple Sciences...
I have Chemistry lesson today before the recess...
Mdm Chan talked a lot of things,although I was able to understand what she said...
However,I can't really digest all that I heard from her,my head was going to burst...T.T
During recess,I had a slight headache and my face was so warm...

I hope to see Mrs Tan as my elective Geography teacher,but then it turned out was not as what I wished for....
My elective Geography teacher is Ms Chiang,a very humourous teacher...
I think my elective Geography will be interesting...
I saw Weekong,Ravindran,ShengXian in elective Geography class...

PE lesson go measure the height and weight...
Don't know why my height is decreasing...=.=
Never really concern about my weight,because I know I am very light...=.=

I am so stressed !!!!!!!!!!!
My head is going to burst at anytime!!!!!!!


转过身子独自离开，
孤单得只剩下影子陪我...
大步朝前走，
流泪也不怕，
背影看不到泪痕...

痛，无休止...

本想写篇有关今天AQ的事，可惜下午回来后就没有心情了...
睡了一个很满足的午觉，也拼了一会儿作业，争取明天和后天少上网，多做作业吧！

每次被欺负或被嘲笑，
我总抱以微笑来证明，
我，并不生气...
可是我既没有圣人般宽广的胸襟，
也没有宰相能容纳船只的肚子，
我只是一个很平凡的懒惰鬼...

也许微笑只是为了让别人放心，
让自己不轻易生气吧...
有时候大发雷霆的人并不可怕，
因为他还会对你吼...
反而是那种虽然非常生气，
却默不作声，静静转身离开的人才可怕...

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那一轮明月，
弯弯地挂在夜空中，
显得那么孤独与凄凉...
原本应该环绕在四周的星星
早已失去踪迹...

风能抚平那逝去的记忆，
却寻不回那溜走的岁月...
任自己如何呼喊，
过去的只剩叹息...
心痛依旧不停歇，
泪水还在酝酿着...



既然你们都说我错了，
那能告诉我怎样才是对的？

Inter-UG Game

Friday morning went for archery practice...

Realise that my shooting skill regressed...

At the end of day,my fingers were very painful because of pulling bowstring...

My brother was backed from China around 4pm...

He never brought my new sports shoes to here due to overloaded...

and my watch was not bought because of some reason too,

but the notebook computer was brought to here safely...

Saturday morning was the actual Inter-UG Game 2008...

Officers were very concern about this year's game,

as we would be able to keep the trophy cup if we won the game for the third year which was this year...

It's sad to know that throughout the game,I had never hit the bulls eye...

Even though all my arrows were on the target paper...

We managed to won the game at the end,

and we kept the trophy cup in the BB room forever...

V. principal, Mr Tan was going to sponsored another trophy cup next year...
Besides the trophy cup,12 of us also got trophies...

My mother brought my brother and I to my parents' friend's house around 7pm...

Saw three little crazy girls there...=.=

Two of them are sisters,while another girl is their cousin...

Three of them occupied the owner's son's computer to play Audion...

The two sisters kept telling each other's faults...

Have fun time there...

We left around 12.45am...

爱淡了梦远了，

拼命了受伤了，

叹气了放弃了...

16.12.2008

Today has AQ training again...
we have fun during training though it's still very tiring...
3 repeating circuits A before 10rounds of running,then 3 repeating circuits B for the ending part...
The gay fellow,Nijel keeps on making horny sounds and doing funny movements...
ShiWei can't take it,so he tells us to keep the gay at the bottom and we all lie on him...
Poor Nijel... XP
Go home around 11am plus...

Chat with Tudi at night..
We share our emotions...
All look so cute!! XD
Everytime chat with her,I will remember her laugh,which makes me feel happy too..
And lots of "HAHAHA"will be seen for all the conversations we had...
Thanks Tudi~ :D
Dun emo ok!?
Both of us still have a lot of homework to be done,and she lost her maths worksheets somemore...=.=
Hope she will find people lend her photocopy as soon as possible...

The most enjoyable thing is that I am able to post and reply tags in QQ空间again!!
Finally,after a few months..=.=''


越来越在意，
越想越苦恼...
如能洒脱点，
牵挂自然消...

相信吗？

今晚和友健一边聊，一边等不会出现的双子座流星雨...
感觉他懂得好多哦~
从天空与大海相恋到每个人都会撒5万个谎以上...
也探讨了人生在世的目的...
沉重的交谈，又感悟了很多...

一直在重复播放着：Dear Baby...
越听越觉得孤寂...

感触很多，
不懂怎样可以停止胡思乱想，
文字和语言都表达不出的感觉，
只有自己最清楚...

十五的月亮十六圆...
今晚的月亮果然很圆...
夜空下除了嘈杂的汽车驶过的声音，
就只剩下傻傻等待流星雨的我，
独自遥望星空...

剩半个月就开学了，
还有好多作业哦...
虽然已经在赶了，
不过还是不能确定，
是否能及时完成...

等待戈多的人，
不想放弃的人，
都很傻，
都很笨，
都很呆...
他们都有着，
固执而天真的心灵，
因为他们选择相信...

每个人的信念都不同，
不管对与错，
只要相信自己，
做对的选择，
然后勇往直前...


那些熟悉的身影，
烙在脑海里，
忘也忘不掉，
抹也抹不去...

即使没有流星，
还是可以许愿...